Growing Old or Growing Apart - II

Exactly an year Later I write this to realise how far apart we have
actually grown to be..Even If we meet...We short fall of words..
Oh! I am hating this..but does that help?..

I am scared to accept it?...Yes I am...afterall we have grown so big
to be called 'emotional' now..

It takes me into 10 minutes of thinking to make a 2 minute call to people
I never thought will involve so much of thinking and talking just enough
to make sure I am not trespassing their personal space.
I think a 1000 words before I call...but utter a mere 100 words out of them..
the rest 900 are lost somewhere in the conversation..and only come back to
me after I say "good bye".

There's an entire new set of people I am with...there are fun days..days filled
with madness..bad days...normal days..family days...things I am doing that I
always wanted to do..But there's something that goes missing...I am so sure
there is something...Something that even I am unable to figure out..

With every 2nd thing that happens to me reminds me of the old days..and I
end up narrating the entire story to the new people around me..
It feels nice when your new friends tell "you mean so much to me " and but
it aches to know that you are no more of the same for your old pals..

Not that I am to blame anybody...for I am sailing in the same boat...but I
am still squirming with the question of why is this happening..???

Appears to be a cliche' but they say "Its takes a minute to say 'Hello'
and ages to say goodbye" Is the accepting of facts so hard for all or
is it just me..!!I Its taking me a Li'l longer ...
but I will we be able to make it up...

I heard an old song by Bruno Mars who sang
"You can Count on me Like 1 2 3...I'll be there....
I can count on you like 4 3 2...I know u'll be there "...
But I seem to have lost the count...
The count is just seeming to shrink to one or maybe none...